The other day, I wrote about how I had busted myself for self-pity. It wasn't a nice thing to say about myself. I had been struggling to accept that I had been given of a period of rest in my life. My response to this wonderful gift was feeling guilty for not doing enough. I … Continue reading I owe myself an apology
At the end of my guided meditation, the voice says, "Let go of the focus on your breath and let your mind be free." Pretty much every day, my reaction is, “Way ahead of you, man.” My mind has been wandering all over the place while I’m "supposed" to be focusing on my breath. I … Continue reading Meditation is such a great opportunity to beat yourself up
guiltYou know when you keep getting the same message from multiple sources? For a couple of weeks, I kept getting “Relax and enjoy”. I heard it during meditation, and from important people in my life. But how to do it? I’ve pondered this over the past couple of weeks, even though I’m pretty sure over-thinking … Continue reading I hear the message “Relax and enjoy” but I don’t know what to do about it
My friend used to ask me, “How are you?” all the time. She’d ask me Every. Day. “Good morning! How are you?” Ugh. It was the worst. What kind of question is that, anyway? “How are you.” What’s with that? Is she seriously expecting an answer? How does one even respond to such an inane … Continue reading The cruelty of “How are you”
My morning routine is primarily self-care (and hence self-esteem), although it's also helpful in combating difficult moods. It's a bit rigid at the moment, but I feel like it will relax as I move through to a more productive relationship with the feelings of anxiety that I encounter in my day-to-day life. On days that … Continue reading The morning (and nighttime) routines key to my mental health
When I meditate, part of my settling-in phase is a quick body scan. I think this is supposed to help connect me with the present, but often it is a series of rabbit-holes. I'll sit down, do my few deep breaths, close my eyes, and scan the immediate environment to take note of what's going … Continue reading How to do a 30-second body scan in only ten minutes
I hadn't told anyone I knew that I had been blogging because I was worried about what people might think.
I went to yoga this morning. Later, I reflected on what the voice was saying.
Is it sitting still? I know about active resting, like going for a walk while practicing mindfulness. But what else? Read a book?
The voice demands, “Who do you think you are, aspiring to such heights?”, and something in me wants to respond with, “Yeah, maybe I’m not capable of being more.”